The Story
I wrote this song about 6 months into my sobriety. I was in a cycle of looking back and wondering what I might have done with my life if I hadn't wasted so much time drinking. This is a call to stop looking back, take whatever is left of your life and offer it to the One who gave you life in the first place.
Lyrics
I guess I worry more than most At least that’s what I’m told I can think my way into a million Bad scenarios I don’t know why the voices in my mind Tell me it’s all real But you can buckle up and settle in If you ask me how I feel Lord have mercy on A troubled heart like mine Who could probably do some good If he wasn’t worried all the time And if there’s still some kind of plan For what my life can be I’ll lay it down And you can have what’s left of me I guess I’m drinking more than most At least that’s what she told me I started reaching for it anytime I was anxious or lonely These days that’s all I feel unless I’ve got one in my hand And when it’s coursing through my veins It makes me less than what I am Lord have mercy on An addicted heart like mine Who could probably do some good If he wasn’t drinking all the time And if there’s still some kind of plan For what my life can be I’ll lay it down And you can have what’s left of me I never meant to drag around these demons for so long Guess I always thought I’d change It in the end 20 years of trying to light the darkness on my own Left me striking matches in the wind I guess you’ve got more grace than most At least that’s what i’m told You’re bringing beauty from the ashes Take the broken make them whole If lost is what you’re looking for I swear I fit the bill Though I ain’t got much to offer you Just an emptiness to fill Lord have mercy on, A tired heart like mine Who never meant to be this way It just happened over time So let me dive into the river Let the water wash me clean And im coming out, so you can have the rest of me